One day, I'll get it..

I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me, but it is hard to stay mad when there is so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I am seeing it all at once, and it is too much and my heart fills up like a ballon that is about to burst. And then I remember to relax and stop trying to hold onto it. And then it flows through me like rain, and I can't feel anything but gratitude, for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I am talking about I'm sure, but don't worry, you will someday.